I need your help desperately, readers and non readers of my stupid LJ alike.

1. I need SOMEONE just someone, anyone, if you know anyone who is a beta or ANYTHING to help me revise my short story. I decided to enter the spoon story into the creative writing contest that my school holds anyways (because I always told myself I'd submit), and the deadline is FRIDAY. Please, please help me. If you have ANY suggestions about it at all, PLEASE DON'T HESITATE to either make them here, or email me at rebanana@gmail.com. If you can, please base your revisions on these negatives that my story received: I need to fully develop my story, and make sure that it has a clear sense of purpose. I need a clear and logical progression of my story from beginning to end. I need to explain more about what she (Kate) thinks about her life and her marriage and her neighbor. I need to make the story less abstract, but still keep within the "show don't tell" mantra. Please please PLEASE help me.
A newly revised (by me) version of the story is here: I really need your help, any help is appreciated. This is not me being insanely proud of my story, but this is me feeling like my story sucks and wanting it to at least be able to compete with the other short stories.

2. I have to decide between taking AP English and Honors Philosophy as Literature next year. Tomorrow is when I have to finally decide. Which would you take, based on this:

AP English- Pros: AP credit, I don't necessarily want to take English 101 in college. We read a lot of books independently, here are some of the works: Oresteia, The Flies, The Wall, Medea, Gift of the Gorgon, Hamlet, Pride and Prejudice, House of the Spirits, Meridian, One Hundred Years of Solitude, and a hell of a lot of poetry. I love reading, I love literature, I love poetry, and I love English in general (I'm destined to become an English major). One of my best friends who I am similar to academically says it is a generally easier AP class and that she loves it, it is a lot of fun and they only write like three papers per term. (This is really shallow, but I also want to have taken at least three APs before highschool is over)
Cons: A lot of analytical writing, which isn't my strong point. According to my teacher it's hard and your grades will go down by at least a letter. I might not get English credit in college. Its a lot to do with my AP euro class and other electives. This class may not be too exciting for me.

Hon Phil Lit- Pros: I've never taken philosophy before, its new and exciting. I'm very interested in philosophy and know almost nothing about it. We'll read works by: Plato, Aristotle, Leibniz, Spinoza, Descartes, Berkeley, Hume, Kant, Kafka, Juan Rulfo, Herman Hesse, Annie Dillard, Sigmend Freud etc. There isn't as much writing in Hon Phil Lit as there is in AP English. The teacher is supposed to be really, really good.
Cons: Wouldn't get AP credit. Don't know anything about philosophy, therefore how would I know if I like it? According to my good friend I shouldn't take it, its hard you have to be really into it to like it. We still have to write (clearly) and our papers will count more and will be harder because there will be less.

What do you think? I know its at the end of the day going to be my own decision, but just based on that what do you think?

I'm home.

Its never been suckier not being in Europe.

So I'm not going to tell you what I thought of the episode tonight... I'll just leave you with a tiny part two (part one and a half if you will) of my zany childhood series... If you haven't checked out the first one... Well you should, but you don't need to to get this.

What the fuck?

oh my god.
that episode of grey's anatomy.

wtf!?

(will explain more when i'm less overwhelmed)

ps. who else thought little creepy blonde girl was Izzie's daughter. i know, i know, out on a limb, but she reminded me so much of Izzie. If her name is Hannah, it IS izzie's daughter. (also it would be a good time for Izzie. Izzie no longer has Alex, Denny, or George, she NEEDS someone. a meaning in her life.)

But whatever it probably isn't.

Actually, me editing, I didn't think the episode was that great. I thought it was better than last weeks episode which was so farfetched (minus the Maddison sex, I LIVE for that stuff). It was a little over the top once again. And the symbolism was a little weird. My friend thinks that the little blonde girl somehow stood for Meredith, and that the woman with the missing son was obviously a mardyr because she was spread on the table like Jesus. Okay, so I didn't go THAT far into it, definitely not. The whole drowning parallel thing is stupid. Meredith can fucking swim. (Okay so what are they going to say: That Ellis Grey was too busy being a bitch to spring for swimming lessons?) My friend pointed out that she could've broken her back or something, but really. Come ON, Grey's writers.

I think Izzie was in the worst situation out of all the interns. I felt thorougly bad for her the whole episode. But honestly, I wasn't looking at this episode like it was going to be more intense than the bomb episode, because thats what they ALWAYS say. And it's almost never true anymore. Stupid viewer-whores. As if they already don't have enough viewers.

In other news- 
I've been working on my Grey's fic, Perfect Memory, and it's been getting good response which is good. Wooo. And TRYING to work on my non-Grey's fic (Aka I have like what 60 pages in Grey's and 3 pages in Non-fanfic)

I got back my practice ACT test Aka the plan test, which is the test that tells you what you should be when you grow up
In reality its pretty lame and doesn't help all that much, but here's what I got in scores. I was pretty impressed because it really did show me... Or who I think I am anyways.

Okay so I scored:
99% reading, 93% science, 89% english, and (gulp! embarrassing) 57% math.
Okay, I'm not THAT bad at math, but I seriously had no time to think and guessed at all the questions. In my defense it was about 10 minutes to do 50 problems.

It had this lame thing that said that if you were ready for college. As IF. But this is how it worked
Below: Not ready for college courses
At: Ready for college courses
Above: Ready for advanced college courses.

I got Above in English, Reading, and Science and of course, Below in Math.

Then comes the fun part.
What should you be when you grow up?
I scored in the People&Ideas area.
Apparentally I should go into these areas:

Medical Diagnosis & Treatment
Social Sciences
Applied (visual) Arts
Creative & Performing Arts
Applied Arts (written and spoken)

And apparentally I can be: Physician, Pathologist, Dentist, Vet, Nurse Anesthetist, Sociologist, Political Scientist, Economist, Urban Planner, Artist, Illustrator, Photographer, Interior Designer, Writer, Musician, Singer, Dancer, TV/Movie Director, Reporter, Columnist, Editor, Librarian.

Basically that covered most of the things I want to be (ish). So I'm pretty glad about my results, even if it is a lame test. Sorry for sharing that with you, but I think it's really interesting how people score on these things. But everyone knows standardized tests are complete bull.

Agh. I am sick of this whole relationship thingy.
On facebook you're either "In a Relationship" or "Single" (the rest doesn't really matter).
It's so annoying that my friends are coupling off like bees on fucking honeycomb (did that make sense) and I'm still single. I know EVERYONE feels this way, but goshgdhdshhsdhsdsd.
Also it doesn't help that my group of friends has no straight guy friends. But whatever, whatever!
I'm just TIRED of being social. *curls up into antisocial ball*

On the flip-side I had a very "good-looking" past two weeks. So much that yesterday, I decided to go into the bathroom with a blowdryer and GASP, blowdry my hair. I know, I know, horrifying. I never blowdry my hair, it always dries naturally because I don't really need to blowdry. But I decided, why not take advantage of this good-looking week? Then I did something sad and decided it would be significantly COOL to see how my hair looked while it was being blowdried [read: model shot with blowwwy outy hair), so I brought my camera into the bathroom.

The pictures came out really really good, but alas, I am very very ashamed.

Vanity sucks.

I went to Olivia's today with Tory and decided that it must suck to have divorced parents.

In other news, I am so sore because of my intense workout with Liz yesterday. Why must we work out to stay in shape!? WHHHHHYYY?


This was such a lame post. I am most definitely staling my hour-long spanish homework.